Motherhood = going crazy one day at a time!

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Life...

I've been thinking a lot about the miracle of life these last few days. With the birth of our long awaited angel and the death of my BFF's baby and then the death of a guy I was in H.S. with(way too young to die) I have thought and cried a lot this week. Life has come as such a blessing to this house, yet to others life has been taken away. I have thought about how these individuals who have been left behind must feel. Life just isn't fair. I feel guilt to have such a healthy adorable baby when my BFF has lost her little guy. I feel guilt to have such a wonderful, healthy, loving husband when others are left to raise a child without a spouse. I feel soooo blessed to have the gospel in my life and to know that these sweet people will all be reunited with their loved ones again. Comforting thoughts?, for me, but I'm sure not as comforting for those who are grieving the loss of their child or spouse. I think about all the times that I have complained about my problems in life. Then I think about Bryce and the way he fought with such dignity to beat cancer. His wife has told the story so eloquently and it makes you stop and think about the things in life you are complaining about. I think I will be trying a little harder each day to complain a little less about the things of this life. After all I still have a life and I have a wonderful devoted spouse who loves me. I still have an adorable little child who I can cradle in my arms when the moment so moves me. Life is so precious, yet so frail. Just something to think about...

2 comments:

Melissa said...

How is Emily doing?
Even if you're prepared for death I think it still must be devastating. Sorry this weeks been hard on you. Try not to feel guilty about your healthy child though. You too, went through a lot of unfair pain and upset to have Myles. I'm sure it would make Emily's grieving harder if she knew you felt some kind of guilt.

angie said...

I'm so sorry to hear about the week you've had......I think Melissa's advice is perfect......when Garrett was just a baby a good friend of mine had a baby that suddenly passed away at 10 days old. It broke my heart and I remember feeling so guilty that I had a healthy baby and she suddenly had empty arms.......I'm so thankful that even though a few of my kids have been touch and go, I have them with me safe and sound.....